ask me now

Have you ever thought you have lost someone? Or only for a moment?

Eight years before Rob and I were married or even saw each other, I used to dream of him. I thought I had lost him.
We met in Juinor High School, where his crush seemed so true. We grew up in church and youth group together. Rob moved away from my hometown after his Sophomore year of High School. I had a boyfriend at the time, so I did not think too much of it. Before he moved, he came by my house and told me goodbye. I guess I never let that go.
Years went by and so did our lives. He was never too far from my mind though. Robert appeared in my dreams night after night for years. I remember telling my brother about it and he said "Rob Stanton! Why would you dream of him? That's weird." I thought it was weird too, but I knew it was real. The only thing I could think of to do was pray for him. And so I continued. I cannot explain it, that still small voice I heard or the emotions I had. But they were there. I finally reached out to some of his best friends and asked how he was doing and what was going on in his life. They gave me his phone number and I still cannot believe I had enough guts to call him. After hours and hours of conversation each night, I got to see him a month after that call for the first time in eight years. We fell in love without even seeing each other, but I think I knew him all along, I just lost his face in the crowd for awhile.

"Ask Me Now" by Blindside

And so one morning just before dawn you came
Out of the forest towards my window
With a smile in your hand
As the moist air up to your knees started swirling like smoke
I saw your lips move
Asking: did you lose something?
I stood glued to the window

Emotions running through my vein
Now I know a word I can't explain

I think I've known you all along
Just lost your face in the crowd for awhile
I think I have been holding my breath all my life
Can I exhale and go into exile
So ask me now and I'll run away with you...