Thursday, April 19, 2012

this is about those decisions you regret. not the "i wish i hadn't dated him or submitted one too many times to a cake craving or hung up the phone without saying goodbye," but those life altering ones. the decisions you remember years and years later and still wish you made a different choice. for me, i have a few of those in my heart. like the time my childhood friend was home alone and had just received a phone call that her grandpa had died. i asked if she needed me to come over and she said she was ok. i didn't come over and still to this day i know i made the wrong decision. i have a few of these memories in my head like how i should have bought the {black purse} in pure detroit or let someone know i was hurting after i had given birth, it cost me a friendship. or choosing not to go to the tennis camp at the university that my parents had already paid for or the time i hit my brother with his b.b. gun, it continues to haunt me.

everyone of those decisions i can't change how i reacted now. i can seek forgiveness on some and change my heart on others. but just like everything else, i can remember those i truly regret and those i take pride in. for having the courage to call my {now husband} after 8 years of not knowing who or where he was or pursuing a special student to be in first grade another year or attending the quest instead of a softball tournament, seeking a mentor out in college and surprising a littlest brother at his graduation.

so how do you make the right decision every time? ones that you will never regret?
and honestly, the first answer that comes to mind is what would Jesus do.

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